cell phone fiasco - part1

i have been holding out for ip5 for the longest time since i knew iphone4 would launch without a white version (yes i know.. silly). But yesterday, on eve of the iphone 4 white launch, i caved in and decided to get the iphone 4. When i got up early to get it today, i ran into multiple problems

problem 1: i discovered that i was not eligible for an upgrade. In fact, i wasn't eligible until 9/25/2012. I got my phone in 2008 june and i haven't gotten a new phone since.. i don't know where this came from

problem 2: upon discovering the above problem, i called customer service and found that i recently (4/13/2011) signed a new 2 year contract.... what tha....

so it turns out that i signed up to get discount through school that i am attending. What i didn't know was that among all the complicated agreement page, it did mention (apparently) that i am agreeing to sign a new 2 year contract. Needless to say i was furious... i know i should have checked but who reads those things anyway?? after talking to the CSR for like 1 hour, i was able to get off the contract but still no discount....

i hate AT&T...should i just move to verizon??

when life throws you a curve ball

so i guess i need a place to rant... so here i go...

this year, i made one of the hardest decision i ever had to make in my life. I had to choose love or family. 

I chose family.

I was put into situation where there was no right choice... but a choice had to be made... i hated my family for putting me in that situation.... i hated myself more for putting me in that situation.

When love blossoms, everything else is just a white background. I never noticed that i was heading straight into a fork with no third option or way to backup.

It has been 4 months now and i have this feeling in my stomach that makes me want to just scream, cry, or just stare into abyss, waiting for someone to tell me that it wasn't a mistake.

even in this anonymous world of random blogging, i can't bring myself to admit my true feelings because saying it would be like committing yourself to lifetime of torture... or it feels that way.

I hate that i am put into this situation... i try not to complain and put on a straight face to move on.... one side will heckle me saying that i moved on to quick... saying that i was lying the last 2 years... and i can't and i won't try to convince her otherwise because that would be going back... and i can't go back there now

the other side is jolly... they have no clue what they are putting me through and don't want to hear about it... to them, i am an oak tree, solid and dependable... i should never have a weak side.

i feel like i have no ground to stand on where i can be myself. This decision has effected my friendship... i even bought tortoises in an attempt to find comfort... maybe that was beginning of the trouble for me? 

i would love to go see a shrink if i can afford one... it is just too bad that only psychology major friend is my old gf from university... story of my life...

iPad notetaking day 2

it has been two days since i started using my iPad2 as note-taking device, effectively replacing notepad/sketchbook and simple word-processing.

I must say that drawing diagrams on ipad is still difficult... i will have to get used to this.... certainly the apps help.

perhaps i will post my very first diagrams i drew on iPad today....